Trip to see Susan

The day after Thanksgiving, Jason and I headed up to Pinedale (between Showlow and Heber) to his mommy's cabin to visit her. It was so much fun. And we loved spending time with her. We didn't want to leave but right after we did on Saturday it snowed ALOT which is why we took off when we did. We absolutely loved it up there and can't wait to go back.
Jason playing with her doggies Annie (the black lab) and Aspin (the white one). They are such good dogs

Me and Jason before going on the Quad. I had never ridden a quad before this trip. It was so much fun and I screamed alot lol. We looked pretty hot all bundled up because it was freezing.

Inside the cabin.

Me and Susan.

I love this picture.

Us on the deck. I loved it out there.

We're Engaged!!

On November 4th, We went to Atlantic Beach to watch the sunset. We got there just in time.
It was so beautiful. These shots are so good for what my camera can do and they don't even express how beautiful it was.

As we were watching, Jason was like babe go over there I want to take your picture with the sunset (as he took the ring out which i didn't know)

He walked over to me and took my hand then got down on one knee and i was like BABE what are you doing?! freakin out, and he was all i love you with all my heart, will you marry me? I was so excited I was like freaking and I grabbed his face with both my hands and i wouldn't let go. and I was like yes!! Of course!! It was so beautiful and so amazing! He couldn't have picked a better place to ask me at.

Us after I let go of him and we sat down to finish watching the sunset.

My beautiful ring!!

I love Jason with all my heart. He is my soulmate, best friend, and the most amazing guy I have ever met. I can't wait to be his wife. We're looking into a March wedding. Hopefully the 27th. We haven't offically made that the date yet because of him being in the military we have to make sure he can take leave during that time if people aren't out in Yuma at that time. I'll definitly keep everyone posted. Thanks to everyone who loves us and supports us.

North Carolina Trip <3

I finally got to go see my love recently. I flew out to North Carolina Nov. 1st and was out there till Nov. 11th. I went out for the Marine Corp Ball. It was beautiful. Hard to hear though because of where they had it at. All of the men and women looked so amazing and it was great to actually see the whole ceremony for the birthday. While I was there we went to the beach alot (because its my favorite place) and we went to the aquarium which is near the beach which was really cool. We also hung out with alot of his buddies which are all very nice and funny. All and all my trip was great. There are a few pictures on here from my trip. Couldn't post alot but they are all on my myspace and facebook. :)
Us before the ball.

Me in my dress.

Us chillin before the ball.

Hangin out with the froggie statue guy at the aquarium.

This thing was crazy. It was bulit by a guy for his kids and it was made out of all wood and it was huge and all in the water. Went up 5 storeis. We climbed on it. Probably would be a lot of fun in the summer.

Monkey Man! I was freakin out. Didn't want him to fall in the water.

Atlantic Beach or "the AB" as the locals call it. My favorite place to go in North Carolina.

The joys of potty training a boy...

Hayden is now potty trained... well for the most part. He does very well with it. He however now doesn't like clothes... So he runs around in as little as possible... On this day, he had a shirt my parents got him when they were in michigan for my cousin's wedding, well it's too big for him.. So this is what he decided to do with it because he didnt' like it being big. He was watching his little kid shows and just randomly did this and started running around like this.. So I had to grab a camera while laughing to get pictures..
He never fails to make us laugh!

My son is such a silly kid!

All I have to say.... I LOVE COWBOYS!

Brad Paisley!!

Dierks Bently!!

Mr. Jimmy Wayne!!!

All of these men were absolutely stunning!! and oh so close!! The concert last night ones the best I've ever been to. They all did an amazing job and had so much fun. They seemed real and not fake like some stars. Reminded me just how much I love cowboys and country music!!

My best friends are amazing!

Jason is absolutely the best person I could have ever asked for in my life. He is my rock through everything and I never would have made it through everything with out him. He's my very best friend and I never would have expected someone as amazing as him would love me. Words could never express what we have and I am completely amazed by it. :)

Jacque, she's my girl! lol. We have had alot of rough times and yet we still go back for more. Our rough times are behind us now and we are totally looking forward to the future. We've got each others backs no matter what and I will always consider her more of a sister than a friend. She's helped me get through everything lately and most the time she's been there herself. Love her!

I also want to say thank you for everyone else who has been there for me and has helped me through everything lately. I am so blessed to have wonderful friends in my life no matter what happens and I really appreciate everyone. I know exactly who I can and can't trust now and who is there no matter what. I love you all!! Thank you for being my friends!!!

The hardest thing I've ever been through in my entire life...

Is now over... As most know I've been in the process of a divorce from J.J. now for technically over 9 months. The actual divorce process took a long time to get started because I had to save up the money to actually do it and prepare for the wrath that was going to come. It was a gut wrenching ordeal and I hated every minute of it. I was constantly stressing over it and it was the absolute hands down worst thing I've ever been through. As of this morning that experience is over. We had our early resolutions conference this morning at 10:30 and we had to be there early for it. We had already signed the papers but we hadn't put some info in them so they got denied. So we went today and did the same papers agreed to all the same stuff and by 10:30 (our original appointment time) we were just waiting for the judge to sign off on them and for our court attorney guy to bring us our signed copies. Now we are both free to move on with our own lives and find our own happiness. I'm kind of still in a stage of shock right now, because I can't believe that its really over and done with, but I know we will both be just fine and Hayden will have an AMAZING life with the both of us by his side whenever he needs us. We will all be happy even though we aren't together anymore. And now the process is lifted off both of our shoulders....

So recently..

I have been getting into reading again. I stopped for awhile because all it would do was put me to sleep. But I have become addicted to it again. Any free time I have lately I find myself reading. I just finished the Time Traveler's Wife, and I must say I found it to be amazing. I absolutely loved that book. My momma is reading it now and then we are going to see the movie (which I have been completely wanting to see even before reading the book), which I hope is just as great as the book was. I recommend reading this book if you haven't already. :) Now I'm going on to the twilight series... i know i know I'm definitely behind but I wanted all the hype to go down before reading all of them. I liked the movie and so I'm sure I will love the books. Plus this way when I'm done with the first one I can go on to the others without figuring out what I'm going to read next lol.

Double Standards

So I just want to share, that I am extremely tired of double standards.. I can't express how unfair they are and how much they suck to live through. It drives me insane and makes me want to scream! If you don't want someone to do something don't do it yourself, be fair and mature about stuff. And if you do decide to do it anyways then its only fair that the other person gets to also if they want...Come on how old are we?? Sorry this is kinda brief and unclear but i just had to say it.

Hayden time

Hayden is now sportin a mohawk!! We cut his hair the other day. He loves it too. He always wants me to spike his hair because naturally it becomes unspiked because he plays so hard. Here are a few pics from cutting his hair and from playing in my room. I love his kid!! <3

Completely SUCKS

So this afternoon on my lunch break, I went to Walgreen's to print off some of my pictures on both of my memory cards, because I needed to give some of them to a few people and I hadn't printed any for awhile... Well the ones of my phone printed and I can pick them up later which is good... However, my memory card from my mom's camera which had 400+ pictures on it would not load; freaked me out so i left Walgreen's and went to another one thinking maybe it was just their machine for some reason... next Walgreen's... still no pictures.... Somehow my memory card got cleared and there are absolutely no pictures on it... I am completely like devastated right now. Pics on there went back to Hayden being in my belly. and people's weddings, and North Carolina, and friends that i spent nights with.. These pics I can't get back. Some I do have on our computer at home and somehow i will get them off there but some i didn't load yet and now i don't have them. This sucks so bad, and its even crappier because i have no idea how they got erased, my card hasn't been in a camera in awhile because we were using my mom's card. GAWD!

Temptation

" Temptation is a woman's weapon and a man's excuse."

*H.L. Mencken*

maybe...

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears one in awhile, so that we can see life with a clearer view again."

-Alex Tan-

Memory

"Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

- Kevin Arnold-

I want your opinion please...

What's your opionion on Girls with tattoos?? Hot, alright, Gross, ugly, etc.. Now I'm not talking a few here and there, I'm talking full sleeve (at least one) and other tattoos. like the pic above...

I truely want to know, and I won't be offended because its your opinion not mine. Please let me know... THANKS <3