Marine Corps Ball: Nov 5th, 2010

On Nov. 5th 2010, VMAT 203 had their USMC ball for the marine corps birthday. My parents were in NC to visit us and so we got to get all dolled up and go to the ball. Here are a few pics of the night. We hung out with Brittany and Chris during the ball. I was so excited to fit in my dress (that i ordered during pregnancy) less than a month after having Blake. :) it was a great night and my husband looked SOOO handsome :)

I also posted the pics of Tim and Amber from their ball that I took. They had theirs in the beginning of Oct because Tim deployed to Afgahnstan.

Happy Birthday Marines!!

Blake Christopher Beatty

October 10th, 2010 came and went....

October 12th, 2010
Jason and I went over to Jason's friend Tim's apartment so that we could have dinner with him and his wife Amber. During the time we were there I started feeling weird and very uncomfertable... Around 6:30p I started having contractions, they were strong but very far apart... I kept an eye on them as we went home but they weren't getting any closer together.. Jason went to sleep because we didn't seem to be getting close, he had work the next morning and hadn't slept the night before. I was extremely uncomfertable and just layed in bed with him while he slept. During those hours I kept having contractions and the night seemed to take forever. The contractions stayed very stong and slowly came closer together. Randomly I would get up and do things around the house. My mother in law was coming in the next day (13th) and I wanted to make sure everything was ready for her arrival even though I was having contractions. Around 2:30a on the 13th my contractions were way too stong for me to just lay in bed and do nothing but be in pain so I got up and was walking around the house, I managed to put sheets and blankets on the air mattress to make it up for my mother in law and got my hair and make up done because I knew these contractions weren't going away, I would be having Blake sometime on the 13th!! (yes, I did my hair and make up... too many pics were taken) The contractions started getting to hard to bare and my breathing was much heavier and around 3:45a my breathing woke Jason up because he knew it wasn't normal. He got me through a few more contractions which were now about 8-10 min apart and we decided to get going to Carteret General Hospital where I would be delivering Blake.

We got into registration and headed up to the labor and delivery floor about 4:30a. The nurses checked me and I was 3cm and about 40% dialated but my contractions were where they should be so they called one of my doctors to see if he wanted to keep me there at the hospital or send me home until I progressed more (which I wouldn't have gone home)... He told them to keep me there and set me up on all the monitors and watch me progress.. A nurse name Jodi took care of me and she was amazing and so sweet. My contractions were really getting to me and started making me nautious I thought I was going to throw up and she took care of me and calmed me down along with Jason. While I started not feeling well, Blake's heart rate started dropping and they were getting concerned, they started monitoring me even more and I was put on oxygen for both of our sakes. It wasn't very often that a nurse wasn't in the room with us. During this time I gradually progressed but the doctor didn't want to break my water just yet. At 7a the shift changed and Dr. D'Andrea came on as my doctor she spoke with the other one and she decided that she did want to break my water because my contractions were about 4-5 min apart and she believed I was far enough along...

They ordered my epideral to be put in and they got it in and started the dosage and it was supposed to kick in. Just after 8a Dr. D'Andrea came back in and broke my water, instantly Blake dropped big time and i was 100% effaced and 8cm dialated. About 15 min later, the contractions were getting the best of me again, I could barely breathe even with the oxygen, I about made Jason's hands break off with every contraction and the pain was so unbareable. All the nurses rushed in and the doctor and I couldn't help but be screaming in pain, they were trying to get the meds put in for the epideral and the doctor announced that I would most likely have him in the next contraction or so and they needed to get set up extremely fast because I wasn't going any longer....

I have never felt as much pain and had never been so scared in my life, I had gone through this all before with Hayden and yet it was COMPLETELY different. During delivery with hayden i was able to breathe through it all and I didn't scream, three pushes he was out.... With Blake I could barely breathe, my heart was racing, and all i could do was scream and push and want my baby out... I still concentrated on what they were saying, and once again three pushes and Blake FLEW (no joke, she had to catch him real fast)out...

Jason was crying and so relieved it was over, I slowly tried my hardest to calm down quickly, they put him on my chest so I could see him and I was yet again instantly in LOVE.. He was so beautiful and had so much hair! I was so thankful he was finally here. They stitched me up and cleaned up the room while I watched them wipe him off and suction liquid from him. It took them longer to get him ready for us because apparently I had an over abundance of liquid in me (more than normal pregnancies) and it had affected him...

Blake was 21in long, 8lbs 5.6oz!

He had to stay longer in the hospital because they thought he had an infection of some sort. We spent three extra days in the hospital and he couldn't come out of the nursary because they had him undressed and on monitors the whole time. He also had to be put under the UV lights because he was slightly Jaundice. The reason they were monitioring him was because his heart rate would drop extremely low while he was sleeping. He was sleeping extremely hard and it was scaring Dr. Mac. They continued to monitior him, Dr Mac spoke with different docs about his case, they ran EKG's on Blake and we cared for him when he was awake.

Tim, Amber and my mommy in law came to see Blake while he was in the hospital and we fed him whenever it was time.

Through those three extra days the tests all came back negative for anything bad and his EKG's became normal, his heart rate would stay up and his jaundice went away. They finally let us go home with Blake on Saturday October 16th during the early afternoon and we couldn't have been more excited!!

Jason was the most amazing partner during the delivery and through everything. He rarely left me and only did if he had to run somewhere real quick or to take his mom back to our house and he came right back to me.

It was an emotional time delivering Blake because all we had was each other because our family and friends were here in AZ for the most part and Blake was stuck in the NICU and when Jason would leave it was so hard not to cry sometimes not knowing what was happening..But God was definitly with us and was watching out for us and our precious baby boy. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us and kept us in their thoughts! We love you all..

Blake is doing AMAZING (he's a little over a month now)! He eats like a champ, is getting chunky, he cries a lot, more than Hayden ever did because he is super gassy, but he's getting through it and is slightly getting better with that.

We couldn't LOVE him more :)

So I've been slacking

I haven't blogged in several months and I don't even know where to begin!! I'm not even sure people read it anymore because I haven't been reminded to blog in a very long time... I'll try to keep up with it more but now with two boys I don't have much down time, I'm only on here because Blake is sleeping and Hayden is playing outside with his Nonnie (my dad)....

Decorating Blake's room!!

Today (Saturday August 21st) we started decorating Blake's room. I love all of his stuff. We still have a few things to get for him but we got some accomplished today and I'm so very excited for him to be here. 50 more days as of today. Once we get a few things organized I'll take final pics of his whole room but here is some for now :)

August 12, 2010

HAYDEN TURNED THREE YEARS OLD!!

On Thursday, my babyhead Hayden celebrated his 3rd birthday. I can't believe how big he is getting and that he's three. He will always be my baby of course :)... He is in Az right now though so I didn't get to spend it with him. This factor pretty much killed me. I've never been away from him for any sort of big event and now I was away from him for his birthday. He spent the day asking for cake, playing with his cousin Olivia who stopped in to visit on their way to Texas (she just started walking), and spending time with that part of the family. I talked to him and his grandparents on the phone that day and they sent me a picture at night of him with his cake. He's getting very good with holidays, and birthdays finally understanding that they are special days, he was calling it his day and was very excited about it. On friday night, JJ's family and my parents and grandma met at Peter Piper Pizza and celebrated with pizza and cake for my little man. They said he had a blast and my mom took pictures, which I can't wait to see. We will be doing something special with him when I get him back at the end of this month, and Jason's mom has ordered some sort of big present for him that is being shipped to the house so I'm sure he will love whatever that is also. I can't wait to get him back here, we will have such a great month together and then Blake will be here!!! The months he is here are amazing and I absolutely LOVE having all my boys together!!

I LOVE YOU HAYDEN AND I MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting ready for Blake

After I got back from Az (with as much stuff as I could shove in my suitcases), we started putting stuff together and away.. Its been a slow process because we have to clean everything, and wait for packages to be shipped here from AZ (my momma is awesome and has been doing so) so that we have all his stuff. We got his clothes all put in the closet, what is hangin in the picture is sizes newborn till 6 months, everything is folded and put away till its time to wear them because his closet is full lol. I can't wait to see him in all his little clothes. We got giftcards from some people for the baby shower so we went to Target and spent them to buy Blake some stuff. We got him a new swing among other stuff and Jason had fun putting it together. He loves being involved in setting up Blake's room and loves putting things together for him. He is so anxious to see his little boy, I love watching him talk to people about Blake and love it when he talks to Blake in my tummy and lays purposely so Blake will kick him in the head lol.

There are a few pics on here I loaded of my baby belly. They were taken a few weeks ago, I haven't taken any recently. I am now 32 weeks as of today. Everything is how it should be according to the doctores. I go every two weeks to doctors appointments now. All the doctors that we've seen there so far are very nice and informative to us, the nurses also, which help having to deliver in a new place where I didn't expect to be. There are 9 doctors at this practice I believe, so they want me to see all of them or as many as possible before i deliver so that I know who they are when I go into labor depending who is on call. I am very pleased with this practice, it is a really nice doctors office and huge. I want to go to the hospital soon to check it out, it is kinda difficult though because of Jason's schedule, we have to get him off work, but hopefully one time after an appointment we can check it out since the hospital is right down the road from the office... The only problem i have had this pregnancy besides the usual stuff is they told me I am hypoglycemic. My body produces too much insulin and it makes my blood sugar drop really low or spike high if I eat sugar. When they had me do a 3 hour blood sugar test I wasn't allowed to eat obviously and my last blood drawn came back at 32... which is SUPER low. So I just have to keep snacks close for when I can feel I am getting shakey or not feeling right. My heart beat also races when I eat sugar... Its kind of an annoying process but I am actually pretty used to it now... Just hoping it does actually go away after I have Blake...

Not much else is happening this pregnancy, just being at home, taking care of the house stuff, being with Hayden when I have him, and trying not to be in pain. Blake is VERY VERY active. He moves constantly! Which stops me from sleeping lately but oh well... We call him our little monkey and lately I've been calling him a ninja lol.

We can't wait to meet our little man and Hayden is very anxious to meet his little brudder :)

Trip to Arizona

On my last trip to Arizona, my time to take Hayden back, I had an exiciting trip. I was there for 5 days this time and had lots to do. I visited with a lot of people, ran errands, got pampered (haircut, dyed my hair, nails done, eye brows waxed), and got maternity pictures taken by Miss Mae Photography (Jess) and had Blake's baby shower. The 5 days went way too fast of course but it was an amazing trip besides having to leave Hayden.

Below are a few preview pictures Jess uploaded from our shoot. It was so fun having her take picutres. We walked around ASU west (which is a beautiful campus by the way) and she took pictures of me and Hayden. Mary and Jacque were there to help keep an eye on Hayden when he wasn't in pictures and Mary got some practice with her camera as well.I wanted to have Hayden in the pictures with me so that both my boys are in the pictures and I haven't gotten updated picturesw with Hayden in quite some time. I plan to use these pictures through out our house as well. I am so excited to see all of them! Jess does an amazing job and I can't wait to get family pictures taken sometime in the future when the 4 of us can make it to Az to do them!!

My baby shower was amazing! My mom, Jacque and Mary threw together a wonderful baby shower for us at my mom's best friend's house (Nancy). They made stunning name tags for everyone to wear with little jungle animals on them, had jungle decorations around and Kelly Revelle made a beautiful jungle cake for us which was SOOOO delicious! We got so many wonderful things for Blake that day. We are so blessed to have everyone love us. I can't wait for Blake to be here to use all the fun things we got. Not too much longer!! I didn't bring the disk with the pictures of the shower to load them on here (I'm forgetful) but they are on my facebook or I'll try to load them another time.

I absolutely loved seeing everyone that trip. It was so much fun!! Love and miss you all!!

My Hayden

I just have to say that I love my son more than anything in this world. He is my everything and always will be. A mother's love never dies it only grows stronger. I absolutely love having Hayden with me everyday, we've bonded so much and its the best thing in the world. He is so excited to become a big brother in a few months. He is protective of my stomach, he asks me to take baby Blake out so he can hug him, and kiss him and play with him. He knows and says that Blake is in my tummy. He kisses my tummy and talks to it. He loves picking out stuff for his baby brother. Hayden absolutely loves NC.

He talks all the time about going over train tracks, being on base, playing with the squirrel at the park, frogs, turtles, the rain and lightening... He also is like a radar for water towers. He spots them even when we don't see them. I think he's obsessed with them. Its awesome. He absolutely loves going to the beach and getting covered in sand while playing with his trucks and then going to wash off in the water and runs away from the waves...

Having him in NC with me and Jason is the best thing ever. I hate that it has to stop every month. It absolutely kills me. I am not sure how I am going to handle it this time with Jason not here to get me to stop crying after an hour. I'm not sure how to describe it perfectly but my heart breaks and gets ripped out everytime Hayden is away from me. It seriously knocks my breath out of me and I don't think it'll get easier. I am not the same person when he isn't with me and I'm not sure how to change that or if I want to. I miss him so much everyday and worry about him because I'm not around or close to take care of him. It is definitly the hardest thing I've had to do in my entire life and I really hope he knows exactly how much I love him and that I HATE being away from him :'(

Update since I haven't been on in awhile.....

So I figured its finally time to write an update. I haven't been on a real computer in a long time and I finally talked my hubby into taking me to the rec center so I could use one to get on and be a normal person instead of just using my phone (which isn't great for typing a lot)... I have a few things to update so here we go....

I've now lived out of AZ for over a month now :( still sad about that.. I love it here in North Carolina but being away from everyone kinda takes the love away from this place. Its so beautiful and I love being 20 min away from the beach though. Its amazing having my husband with me everyday finally and having our house... Some things with the house still need to change but its coming along... Once we get a couch and curtains I'll take pictures of everything in the house (with actual furniture in it) and post them so people can see, either on here or facebook...

Tomorrow (June 25th) I FINALLY get to go home and get Hayden to bring him back here to NC. I can't wait.. I'm not really looking forward to the flights because I hate flying very much, I also hate lay overs (i have two) and the fact that i'll have Hayden on the plane and trying to keep him occupied for that long is going to be a challenge but it'll all be worth it to finally have my baby boy with me again. I've missed him so much this last month. Several times of ridiculous crying and being upset because I am not complete without him. I can't be myself because part of me is missing. I still don't feel like I live here because he isn't with me. But that's going to be different soon since I have him for a month starting this weekend!! <3

I am now 25 weeks pregnant. Will be 26 weeks on Sunday. I'm starting to feel like humpty dumpty. Still not huge but definitly growing and am very uncomfertable. I have been having major pains lately where it hurts to walk or move in general at times. Still working on the long doctor process here but that will definitly be brought up at my first visit. I can't wait for Blake Christopher to be here. I am so anxious to see Jason's face when he is born and just to see him holding his little baby boy. We started putting all his furniture together and got most done. We are almost done then its the decorating. Thinking greens and browns with a jungle theme that we found at Target. We just registered there this last weekend and I can't wait to decorate...

Looking forward to everything that is going to happen this year and for the end of July. Even though I'll have to take Hayden back then (which i'm not happy about) I am excited for the end of july because I'll be home for about a week maybe a little shy of a week to see everyone I possibly can, have a baby shower with all my ladies, spend time with family, and get maturnity pictures taken. I'm completely excited for those. It'll be a new experience because I didn't do them when I was pregnant with Hayden. I barely took baby belly pictures with him, I'm not a huge fan of pictures of myself but I believe Jessica will do an amazing job. And I'm starting to plan cute ideas for them. I am so going to try to get Hayden in a few cuz then I'll have both my boys :)

I think that's good for the updates for now, plus my hubby is wanting to go home :) so that's it for now... I'll try to get on here again before another month goes by...

My beautiful sister

Growing up, when I was in elementry school my parents ran a foster home through our house for several years. I had tons of sisters and a few brothers randomly in my house. It was an amazing experience for me because I realized how privlidged I was compaired to some kids and how much my parents loved me even when I was bad some days. So many kids out there come from homes where that isn't the case and they have to deal with so much pain and abuse its just horrible. No one should ever even think about abusing a child no matter the circumstances. Most kids were in and out of the house within days, weeks or a couple months. We had a few girls that stayed over a year and one who I consider my sister still who stayed with us over a year and a half. We bonded so well as kids and are so much a like it was wonderful to have her for that time. When I was ten she was allowed to move to Maryland to be with her mom again and she had to leave us. I don't remember her leaving because I most likely blocked it out, however I do remember missing her and wanting her home to be my big sister. We talked through letters randomly for a little while and sent pictures to each other and then we lost contact... A few years ago thanks to good ol facebook and myspace i found my sister!! She has a wonderful little family now and enjoys life so much! I have two nephews one named Austin and one named KJ. Austin is 8 and KJ is 2. I am so excited to get KJ together with Hayden because I know they'll get along since they are VERY close in age. She lives in Maryland still with her husband and is a firefighter. I am so happy for her!! She finally came to see us after 13 years of being gone!! We had a blast together!! It was like we had never been apart. We are still SO much a like and could get in a lot of mischief if we had longer together. She was only here for a few days and she left this morning but the time we had together was amazing. I hope to see her again soon on the East coast, she plans on driving down with the family to see us in north carolina and to see the new baby when she arrives. I can't wait to have many more fun years with my sister. Love ya Ashley!

The month of May

I am SOOOO excited for May to be here soon!! So much is happening and I can't wait!!

May 5th...My foster sister Ashley is coming to visit from Maryland.. I haven't seen here since I was in 5th grade I believe and she moved back to Maryland to be with her real mom. I can't wait to pick her up at the airport Wednesday and spend 5 days with her! She is very excited to see all of us and I'll definitly have pics to post after! Trying to get my brother to come from Cali next week to spend time with both his sisters but we'll see if we can get him to...

I also go to the doctor that day too...

May 9th, is my bestie's birthday (Jax) and its also Mother's day and it'll be great to celebrate with loved ones.

May 17th my HUBBY comes home!!! YAY I finally get to see him again. He doesn't get in till late at night but I'll sure be waiting at the airport for him! I love seeing him when he first walks up from the plane. People probably think we're silly but we get so excited because we hate being apart and its just wonderful to finally be back together!!! He is coming home to help me (mostly doing the loading) load up the moving truck to move to North Carolina. We will be here for a few days before leaving to finish loading, visit with some people and head out. We have to drive to NC. It'll be a long road trip but I'm sure we'll have a blast getting to be together!

May 19th..... WE FINALLY FIND OUT WHAT THE BABY IS!! I can't wait!! I've been so anxious for so long to find out what the baby is. Everyone keeps telling me a girl so I hope they are all right because I really need one! This pregnancy has been completely different than the one with Hayden which is expected but I've definitly had A LOT of signs of what they say a girl does... Jason will be home for this ultrasound and I'm so excited to watch him while he sees our little baby. He can't wait to see since he's missed the other visits and pictures during the pregnancy. He also believes its a girl. Then we can finally call it by its name instead of "it" or baby...

May 20th is when we are planning on heading out early in the morning for our trip to our home in North Carolina (hopefully we don't get lost)

May 21st is my birthday! It won't be a big deal this year because we'll be moving during it but I'll finally get to spend my birthday with my hubby and that'll be AMAZING!

(somewhere during this time we'll be Home)

May 26th is my hubby's birthday and we'll get to be in our new home for it and get to celebrate! Its also his brother's birthday so we'll have to call David for it.

There's lots of stuff in between all of this but those are the main points!! It'll be an amazing month!!

Girls night out

A little while ago Jess was up here to visit and a few of us ladies went out. We all met up at Hurricane Bay and had a blast. We didn't really like it there too much because of inapproprite things they were allowing to happen on the dance floor and they refused water when Jess and Mandy asked for water. There was also an abundance of guys that wouldn't leave the ladies alone. Everyone had a blast though, just drank and few (of course I didn't) and danced the night away with friends. Everyone looked wonderful and it was a great night! love these girls :)

Updates

So I haven't been on here in awhile so I figured I should give a few updates.....

Jason found us a house in North Carolina! Its about 6 miles from base, maybe a little less. Its a 1950's house, but its updated and I completely love it. He's been living in it a few weeks now (with his very few belongings)and I'll be moving right after we find out what the baby is.

I recently had my last day at work. I'm happy to be a stay at home mommy now with Hayden he definitly keeps me busy. I was sad to leave because I am close to all of them there but I will keep in touch and visit them when I can. My bestie Jacque just started working there to help Mike out and I wish her the best with it. I know she'll do great and they'll love her working there.

The baby is doing great. I go back to the doctors for a monthly check up and blood work on Wednesday May 5th, to see how everything is going. I am still getting nautious all the time, it still hasn't gone away. I've been taking Ginger Root with Peppermint pills and its supposed to make my tummy feel better but they don't seem to work still... We'll just keep waiting it out. Actually had some actual morning sickness, not so thrilled with that.. I'll be fine though. Still also have been super sleepy still, except at night time when I'm supposed to be sleeping...

So those are a few updates. :)

Hope

When the world says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

Baby Beatty

So as most of you know, I'm pregnant. Jason and I are expecting our first little one together October 10, 2010. As of today I am 9 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I had our first doctor's appointment yesterday. I am going to see Dr. Kotain. I just started seeing her and I (HATE) doctors but she is really cool. She's very informative, very nice, young, and she is very down to earth. Made me feel a lot better about the doctor's visit esp having to go alone. That is something I'm definitly going to have to deal with and get through because with Hayden JJ went to every appointment. It kills Jason that he can't go. He is so excited for this baby and wants to be apart of every moment and can't be. So I instantly give him updates after the appointment.

They did an ultrasound this appointment, to see exactly how big the baby was at this point to give me an accurate due date instead of just guessing. I loved it. the baby is so tiny right now its crazy to see. The heart beat was so strong too. It made me very happy. My mom got to watch and hear this as well. I had her come in for the ultrasound.

In a few weeks I go for another ultra sound to do some scans for different diseases to make sure the baby is healthy, then i go back for my next check up on April 7th.

The hardest thing I'm going to have to accept carrying this baby is the not lifting part. I'm not supposed to lift anything over 15lbs esp into the second trimester... This is going to be hard because that means I can't carry Hayden around anymore and pick him up without him climbing on stuff to get to me or climbing into the chair to cuddle with me. I'll get through it it'll just be hard.. because he is definitly no where near 15lbs anymore. lol.

I think that's about it for updates right now... Here's the ultra sound pic of our baby that I got yesterday. And of course a pic of the tests i took, plus a lab at Luke airforce base took a test too...:)

My Hubby

Just wanted to start this out by saying I love Jason more than I ever thought I could love anyone in my entire life. He is so amazing to me and Hayden. He is my very best friend. He makes me feel as if I can do anything I set my mind to and supports my decisions 100% of the way. He cares for Hayden as if he is his own son and he misses him tremediously when he can't be around. He is now going to be a daddy again to his own child and I can't wait for it. He is such an amazing person he is going to be so great with a baby. I just wish his own father could be alive to this day to see what a man his son has become and what a great father he is. I'm so thankful to have Jason as my husband and my best friend. I'm completely excited about our life together and what the future will hold for us and our little family. :)

So In Love!

I just have to say that I love Jason with all of heart. He makes me ther person I want to be and I couldn't have asked for a better husband. He is my very best friend and my soul mate... On that note... Sunday January 17th, we walked around downtown Glendale and Meg and Heather took our pictures. I was nervous but it was SO much fun. We got so many pictures back and I love them! There are only a few on here but I definitly couldn't post all of them since there's 92... Meg and Heather do an amazing job! I want to say Thank you again ladies and we'll be calling you again for more pictures sometime in the future. :)

I Married My Best Friend

Jason and I got married Friday January 15th 2010! We went to the courthouse in Surprise that night with our family (who could make it) and Jacque (might as well be my sister). We didn't tell many people before hand because we are still having our ceremony for everyone to go to March 27th 2010, so we weren't able to have many people there. Lots and lots of pictures were taken that night. Here are a few of my favorites....

Us talking beforehand

One of our silly pics.

His mommy Susan got to make it down from Pinedale for it. I absolutely love this picture!

Us during the wedding

We are now, Mr and Mrs Beatty!!

I have so many more pics but I couldn't load them all on to here. Also Sunday morning Megan and Heather took lots of pictures of us while we walked around downtown Glendale. I am so excited to get them back. We've seen 12 of them so far and we are so happy we got them done. It was so much fun too! We really appreciate that they took the time to do them for us :)

oops!

So I've been slacking. Jess told me today that I need to blog, and I really didn't think it had been that long but then I looked at someone's page and my name said 1 month ago.. So I need to get on here to do this lol.. I have a few things to write about now so there will be more posts :)