So I've been slacking

I haven't blogged in several months and I don't even know where to begin!! I'm not even sure people read it anymore because I haven't been reminded to blog in a very long time... I'll try to keep up with it more but now with two boys I don't have much down time, I'm only on here because Blake is sleeping and Hayden is playing outside with his Nonnie (my dad)....

Decorating Blake's room!!

Today (Saturday August 21st) we started decorating Blake's room. I love all of his stuff. We still have a few things to get for him but we got some accomplished today and I'm so very excited for him to be here. 50 more days as of today. Once we get a few things organized I'll take final pics of his whole room but here is some for now :)

August 12, 2010

HAYDEN TURNED THREE YEARS OLD!!

On Thursday, my babyhead Hayden celebrated his 3rd birthday. I can't believe how big he is getting and that he's three. He will always be my baby of course :)... He is in Az right now though so I didn't get to spend it with him. This factor pretty much killed me. I've never been away from him for any sort of big event and now I was away from him for his birthday. He spent the day asking for cake, playing with his cousin Olivia who stopped in to visit on their way to Texas (she just started walking), and spending time with that part of the family. I talked to him and his grandparents on the phone that day and they sent me a picture at night of him with his cake. He's getting very good with holidays, and birthdays finally understanding that they are special days, he was calling it his day and was very excited about it. On friday night, JJ's family and my parents and grandma met at Peter Piper Pizza and celebrated with pizza and cake for my little man. They said he had a blast and my mom took pictures, which I can't wait to see. We will be doing something special with him when I get him back at the end of this month, and Jason's mom has ordered some sort of big present for him that is being shipped to the house so I'm sure he will love whatever that is also. I can't wait to get him back here, we will have such a great month together and then Blake will be here!!! The months he is here are amazing and I absolutely LOVE having all my boys together!!

I LOVE YOU HAYDEN AND I MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting ready for Blake

After I got back from Az (with as much stuff as I could shove in my suitcases), we started putting stuff together and away.. Its been a slow process because we have to clean everything, and wait for packages to be shipped here from AZ (my momma is awesome and has been doing so) so that we have all his stuff. We got his clothes all put in the closet, what is hangin in the picture is sizes newborn till 6 months, everything is folded and put away till its time to wear them because his closet is full lol. I can't wait to see him in all his little clothes. We got giftcards from some people for the baby shower so we went to Target and spent them to buy Blake some stuff. We got him a new swing among other stuff and Jason had fun putting it together. He loves being involved in setting up Blake's room and loves putting things together for him. He is so anxious to see his little boy, I love watching him talk to people about Blake and love it when he talks to Blake in my tummy and lays purposely so Blake will kick him in the head lol.

There are a few pics on here I loaded of my baby belly. They were taken a few weeks ago, I haven't taken any recently. I am now 32 weeks as of today. Everything is how it should be according to the doctores. I go every two weeks to doctors appointments now. All the doctors that we've seen there so far are very nice and informative to us, the nurses also, which help having to deliver in a new place where I didn't expect to be. There are 9 doctors at this practice I believe, so they want me to see all of them or as many as possible before i deliver so that I know who they are when I go into labor depending who is on call. I am very pleased with this practice, it is a really nice doctors office and huge. I want to go to the hospital soon to check it out, it is kinda difficult though because of Jason's schedule, we have to get him off work, but hopefully one time after an appointment we can check it out since the hospital is right down the road from the office... The only problem i have had this pregnancy besides the usual stuff is they told me I am hypoglycemic. My body produces too much insulin and it makes my blood sugar drop really low or spike high if I eat sugar. When they had me do a 3 hour blood sugar test I wasn't allowed to eat obviously and my last blood drawn came back at 32... which is SUPER low. So I just have to keep snacks close for when I can feel I am getting shakey or not feeling right. My heart beat also races when I eat sugar... Its kind of an annoying process but I am actually pretty used to it now... Just hoping it does actually go away after I have Blake...

Not much else is happening this pregnancy, just being at home, taking care of the house stuff, being with Hayden when I have him, and trying not to be in pain. Blake is VERY VERY active. He moves constantly! Which stops me from sleeping lately but oh well... We call him our little monkey and lately I've been calling him a ninja lol.

We can't wait to meet our little man and Hayden is very anxious to meet his little brudder :)

Trip to Arizona

On my last trip to Arizona, my time to take Hayden back, I had an exiciting trip. I was there for 5 days this time and had lots to do. I visited with a lot of people, ran errands, got pampered (haircut, dyed my hair, nails done, eye brows waxed), and got maternity pictures taken by Miss Mae Photography (Jess) and had Blake's baby shower. The 5 days went way too fast of course but it was an amazing trip besides having to leave Hayden.

Below are a few preview pictures Jess uploaded from our shoot. It was so fun having her take picutres. We walked around ASU west (which is a beautiful campus by the way) and she took pictures of me and Hayden. Mary and Jacque were there to help keep an eye on Hayden when he wasn't in pictures and Mary got some practice with her camera as well.I wanted to have Hayden in the pictures with me so that both my boys are in the pictures and I haven't gotten updated picturesw with Hayden in quite some time. I plan to use these pictures through out our house as well. I am so excited to see all of them! Jess does an amazing job and I can't wait to get family pictures taken sometime in the future when the 4 of us can make it to Az to do them!!

My baby shower was amazing! My mom, Jacque and Mary threw together a wonderful baby shower for us at my mom's best friend's house (Nancy). They made stunning name tags for everyone to wear with little jungle animals on them, had jungle decorations around and Kelly Revelle made a beautiful jungle cake for us which was SOOOO delicious! We got so many wonderful things for Blake that day. We are so blessed to have everyone love us. I can't wait for Blake to be here to use all the fun things we got. Not too much longer!! I didn't bring the disk with the pictures of the shower to load them on here (I'm forgetful) but they are on my facebook or I'll try to load them another time.

I absolutely loved seeing everyone that trip. It was so much fun!! Love and miss you all!!

My Hayden

I just have to say that I love my son more than anything in this world. He is my everything and always will be. A mother's love never dies it only grows stronger. I absolutely love having Hayden with me everyday, we've bonded so much and its the best thing in the world. He is so excited to become a big brother in a few months. He is protective of my stomach, he asks me to take baby Blake out so he can hug him, and kiss him and play with him. He knows and says that Blake is in my tummy. He kisses my tummy and talks to it. He loves picking out stuff for his baby brother. Hayden absolutely loves NC.

He talks all the time about going over train tracks, being on base, playing with the squirrel at the park, frogs, turtles, the rain and lightening... He also is like a radar for water towers. He spots them even when we don't see them. I think he's obsessed with them. Its awesome. He absolutely loves going to the beach and getting covered in sand while playing with his trucks and then going to wash off in the water and runs away from the waves...

Having him in NC with me and Jason is the best thing ever. I hate that it has to stop every month. It absolutely kills me. I am not sure how I am going to handle it this time with Jason not here to get me to stop crying after an hour. I'm not sure how to describe it perfectly but my heart breaks and gets ripped out everytime Hayden is away from me. It seriously knocks my breath out of me and I don't think it'll get easier. I am not the same person when he isn't with me and I'm not sure how to change that or if I want to. I miss him so much everyday and worry about him because I'm not around or close to take care of him. It is definitly the hardest thing I've had to do in my entire life and I really hope he knows exactly how much I love him and that I HATE being away from him :'(

Update since I haven't been on in awhile.....

So I figured its finally time to write an update. I haven't been on a real computer in a long time and I finally talked my hubby into taking me to the rec center so I could use one to get on and be a normal person instead of just using my phone (which isn't great for typing a lot)... I have a few things to update so here we go....

I've now lived out of AZ for over a month now :( still sad about that.. I love it here in North Carolina but being away from everyone kinda takes the love away from this place. Its so beautiful and I love being 20 min away from the beach though. Its amazing having my husband with me everyday finally and having our house... Some things with the house still need to change but its coming along... Once we get a couch and curtains I'll take pictures of everything in the house (with actual furniture in it) and post them so people can see, either on here or facebook...

Tomorrow (June 25th) I FINALLY get to go home and get Hayden to bring him back here to NC. I can't wait.. I'm not really looking forward to the flights because I hate flying very much, I also hate lay overs (i have two) and the fact that i'll have Hayden on the plane and trying to keep him occupied for that long is going to be a challenge but it'll all be worth it to finally have my baby boy with me again. I've missed him so much this last month. Several times of ridiculous crying and being upset because I am not complete without him. I can't be myself because part of me is missing. I still don't feel like I live here because he isn't with me. But that's going to be different soon since I have him for a month starting this weekend!! <3

I am now 25 weeks pregnant. Will be 26 weeks on Sunday. I'm starting to feel like humpty dumpty. Still not huge but definitly growing and am very uncomfertable. I have been having major pains lately where it hurts to walk or move in general at times. Still working on the long doctor process here but that will definitly be brought up at my first visit. I can't wait for Blake Christopher to be here. I am so anxious to see Jason's face when he is born and just to see him holding his little baby boy. We started putting all his furniture together and got most done. We are almost done then its the decorating. Thinking greens and browns with a jungle theme that we found at Target. We just registered there this last weekend and I can't wait to decorate...

Looking forward to everything that is going to happen this year and for the end of July. Even though I'll have to take Hayden back then (which i'm not happy about) I am excited for the end of july because I'll be home for about a week maybe a little shy of a week to see everyone I possibly can, have a baby shower with all my ladies, spend time with family, and get maturnity pictures taken. I'm completely excited for those. It'll be a new experience because I didn't do them when I was pregnant with Hayden. I barely took baby belly pictures with him, I'm not a huge fan of pictures of myself but I believe Jessica will do an amazing job. And I'm starting to plan cute ideas for them. I am so going to try to get Hayden in a few cuz then I'll have both my boys :)

I think that's good for the updates for now, plus my hubby is wanting to go home :) so that's it for now... I'll try to get on here again before another month goes by...